This is me Stepping Out…

Have you ever been at a point of stepping out?

Are you there now?

Ok. Deep breath.

This is where I step out, and stop hiding.

And do something that’s been on my heart for years.

And yes, in my dreams, too.

Singing, singing and more singing.

In another words, doing a kind of concert at my church (and on Zoom), sharing songs I’ve written over the years. In just a few days (Friday 9th Feb, Lord willing).

And what do I find in my heart?

Fear that it will fall apart.

The danger of pride for gifts that came from God, not me (ugh, my sinful heart!).

Inadequacy.

What if it all goes wrong? I know there will be flaws, and wrong notes.

But I know that it’s good to be weak, and human, and dependent on the Lord.

And this is how God is encouraging me: because I belong to Him through Jesus (and you can, too- you can find out more here) my identity is secure in Him, completely separate from my performance. I have no reason to be proud if it goes well, because it’s His glory. I don’t need to be crushed if it doesn’t, because my identity is secure in Him.

And that’s what I often sing about! His love. His mercy. His grace. Seeking His Kingdom first! It’s what my fourth album (which I started making a few weeks ago) is all about: finding my identity in being loved by God.

Loved by God, secure in my identity in Him because I belong to Christ, I can step out because He is with me.

And it doesn’t even need to be perfect. When I was preparing to do an open mic years ago, feeling very inadequate, I sought the Lord and seemed to sense His encouragement that it doesn’t have to be 100% musically flawless. It’s more about His hand being on me to do this. So an odd wrong note doesn’t really matter that much! And a friend shared the exact same thing with me the very next day. What matters far more is that it carries something that ministers to others.

And the truth is that I love it!! I just love music! When I stopping stressing, that is, and be grateful for what He has given me.

And I think He is encouraging me to relax, and enjoy it.

So I’m praying that Friday 9th February won’t really be about me. I’m praying it will be about glorifying my faithful Father, and ministering to the people who are there. The people who watch online.

About God meeting you (if you’re there watching), and drawing close to you, and speaking to you. And I bet He’ll be meeting me and encouraging me, too.

Lord, will You meet with us all?

If you’d like a Zoom link to watch, feel free to get in touch! carolinejaneabblitt@googlemail.com

And, if you’d like to, please pray I’ll keep my eyes on Him, and He will be at work!!

Is there a way He is leading you to step out, too?

If you’d like to hear one of my songs, here is my testimony in a song called ‘My Jesus’: