For years now, I’ve been praying that the Lord would make a way for me to share my music online. I think this website is part of His answer. And it’s more than I had imagined, because it’s a place I can share words, too!
The whole process of setting this site up is bringing up things in me… and I think I would be good to open up and process that.
For years, I’ve been trying to find a way of sharing and selling my music online. In answer to prayer, God helped me make this website, and I’m pretty much at the point where I can start sharing it more widely (gulp).
But there’s something I’m processing through… How do I do this in a way that honours God? Should I even do it at all? Should I stop because my motives aren’t 100% pure?
If I’m honest, part of me has always wanted to find acceptance in other people’s affirmation. And it’s been all the more the case when I start sharing music and writing, because people’s affirmation and encouragement can come through my gifts. And there’s plenty of pride and self in my sinful heart!
Or others can criticise, and I can get discouraged.
But I know that’s not the way God wants this to be. He wants me to share what He has given me to bless other people. If He has given me something someone else needs, then it’s important that I share it.
But not to get praise for me- but to bless you, the reader!!
The truth is that the Father’s love changes everything.
Trusting in Jesus and following Him, I am covered by His blood and His righteousness.
In Jesus, I already have my Father’s love, delight and affirmation.
So this website can start from a different place. A place of knowing that I am loved already. That God already loves me and delights in me and accepts me. It doesn’t matter whether I am successful or not. It doesn’t matter whether people like my music or not. What matters is the Father’s smile. And then serving, and sharing, to be a blessing, and to share His love.
I want to get out of the way. I want this to be about Him.
I’m praying that, when people come on this site, they will encounter Him. I’m praying that my words and my voice will be used to draw people closer to Him. Because that’s what really matters. That’s what will last eternally.
And the truth is that there is no need for me to look to other people for affirmation.
I am so very, very loved by the Father. Even if it all goes ‘wrong’.
The Father’s love changes everything.
Lord, please use this site. Please use these words. Please use this music. And please use it to help other precious people get to know You and Your amazing love.
Caroline Abblitt 